Day 07 – Someone who has made your life worth living for.
I guess in some way everyone you care about or everyone that is making some sort of active difference in your life is worth living for. Some people would approach today’s topic as ‘Ahh if this person wasn’t here I don’t know how I’d live’ etc. Sadly (or not, depending how you look at it) I don’t have anyone that I can say that about. I live life because life itself is worth living. Full stop.
However, I feel I must add a foot note here; I didn’t always feel this way, in fact I felt quite the opposite. But one gloomy day a stranger and I befriended each other, and since then I haven’t been who I used to be. Ok, this is starting to sound like a narration to some cheesy feel-good find-yourself chick flick, but I am deeply serious, that’s exactly how it went down.
At times I believe that some things were just meant to be. And I do believe this was one of them. At a time where I was a little more than lost, someone came into my life and showed me that despite all its misgivings, life is truly beautiful. It wasn’t a conventional friendship. I don’t suppose it ever could be. But there we were, two complete strangers who over a short while changed our whole outlook on life, our perspectives, morals and priorities. I began to see that not everything is black and white, not everything needs a certain label or needs to fit into a certain place in life. Some things just are.
Now, that friendship is reduced to bittersweet nods of acknowledgement across a crowded street, maybe even the rare smile. If we made such a big difference to each other then why is it the way it is? Because sometimes two people, for reasons which only they know, should stay away from each other. ‘The bigger picture’ is a prettier one for all concerned if that’s the way it stays. Sometimes you have to sacrifice your own wants and needs for the sake of others. It is what it is.
‘People always leave’ right? True. But sometimes they leave behind something much greater than themselves. They leave a mark on your heart and a speck of magic in your soul. And there you are, forever changed; amongst all the madness you call life.
You saw right through me, saw me for exactly who I was. You killed the biggest part of my self-destructiveness. You showed me that it’s ok to be how I am and be who I am. You taught me that ‘the beauty is in the flaws’.
What you did for me will never be forgotten, no matter where you are.
You left your footprints on my soul, in a place where even the highest tide could never wash them away.
And for that, I will always thank you.